Thanks God Leigh's first homecoming dance was over.  It was overall a fun experience to Leigh.  Although two things - Nate didn't text her when he got there, and she wasn't invited to Nancy's post-dance party - bothered her, but she ended up dancing with Alex (her guy for the week) and she was happy. 
She is keeping up with her emotions pretty well - school, homework, tests, boys, etc.  She doesn't want to skate again, too much stress and too hard to catch up.  I am so worry that her life is not too fulfilled right now.  But she likes to take it easy.... .what can I say? 
Life is ok now.  No argument, no fighting.  I have learned to shut up and keep quiet.  Just listen.  She is pretty much telling me a lot of things, so I am thankful.
Lyanne has sharp eyes.  She knows what is going on.  One day she was in my car and she asked - mommy, not counting me, Leigh and Daddy, what do you care the most?  She stunted me.  I didn't know how to answer.  Nothing.  There is nothing that I care about other than these 3 people in my life.  I care about my mom, my sister and my brother, and my friends, of course.  But it can't compare.  Uncomparable.  I would give up any thing to keep these 3 people healthy and happy. 
I guess that is how I define my life - my family comes first.  I couldn't move on with Leigh being ill.  I just had to give up every thing.  But Lyanne was confused, I guess.  She said, there's got to be something else that you care about.  She was so right.  I was speechless. 
If my current definition of my life is not right, how should I define my life?
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment